Wednesday, August 27, 2014

The priceless journey with you

What is the definition of a perfect ending? Most of the people loves to watch movies and dramas with perfect endings, and if it doesn't end that way, many would said that the movie suck big time and they wasted their time on watching them.



There's a quote that goes by, "I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned the hard way, that some poem doesn't rhyme and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's gonna happen next".



Every relationship will have a perfect start. We all started with nothing, with no expectations from each other. It was once exciting while being at the exploration stage with each other. When the time goes by, more expectations will fall in and we will start counting what the other half have not done for us instead of being appreciative of each small things in our daily life. Maintaining has always been the most difficult part of the relationship, whether one actually falls out of love eventually. Other pressures and things around that's affecting us will also made us to be more calculative and suppressed.

From how we got close together, chat and thoughts that we shared made us felt that we are compatible in some way but there was the time when I placed no hope on pursuing something beyond our friendship.  We started with no expectations towards each other, but just even a small thought like making a cup of tea would make me a happy girl. Eventually things might become a routine, but we still constantly reminding ourselves to say thank you and be appreciative and count my blessings from each other and a thank you message before bedtime every night.

This song brought a significant meaning behind


Every relationship have the 'honeymoon' period, so applies for us as well. Honeymoon period was great when we had fun exploring many coffee places, catching every latest movie in the cinema, and just snuggle to catch a movie on the couch. There were surprises after surprises during special occasions especially during birthdays, valentine's days and random days. But eventually things as such will slipped away once we have passed the period and when we start to get busy about work. Greater commitments even comes in when you buy a place and everything have to be done from scratch.

Here's the special homemade lunch made with lots of love during the honeymoon period.

Well but don't get me wrong. I'm not saying that I don't get any of these anymore during these days, once a while but I'm still glad of it. Surprises will eventually become lesser, even myself I've stopped doing things like preparing a card to be open and read every single day for the things that I appreciate. Making  like at least a few handmade stuffs during birthday, I still do just lesser but at least I still appreciate every single thing which is made from the heart.

I would see this as a completely different phase of life. Many couples will struggle in this trial period, I wouldn't say that we don't have any problems, we do ... a lot in fact, just that which are the ones who manage to hold strong and make their relationship through the next phase in life. We have a collection of sweet memories within these 2 years and yet there should be a long list ahead that we wish to explore together in future. 

The 2nd anniversary that we made time out of the busy schedule at Sekeping Serendah.

Here we are in another phase of life into buying a place together. Making that very decision wasn't easy, after much thoughts and consideration, having a place of our own is necessary. We are no longer small kids and was decided that having a place is a good long term commitment to have by now. We did went through many hiccups and only manage to get a place the 3rd time. They've always said that 3rd time is a charm. And hey, coincidentally he's my 3rd boyfriend too :) 

Nevertheless I'm glad that all my hard work since I started working at 21 years old was really paid off by having this place. At least we both know that we have worked blood and sweat out for a place we can call home sweet home. We painted the whole place with a little help from my cousin, did many things from scratch, fixing things together. Though the surprises was lesser as mentioned, but these were the things that's truly worth, because the experience of us putting up a place together is irreplaceable with any materialistic stuffs. As how we share the same passion in life that we cherish such things in life and not just simply hiring people to get things done. Priceless.


Besides, other than buying the place with our own hard earned money I'm thankful to all my family members who are constantly supportive and sponsored us many electrical items at home. My gratitude to all of them that my house would not be complete with their generosity to us.  

There's still many trials ahead of us. Perhaps, what was being seen on the surface was always the good side but the untold story will remain silent. Life was never meant to be easy, but yet we still need to wake up and face life every day. Somethings in life when we don't have an option to change, we will just need to make ways and both party will have to come into agreement into achieving the same goal or dream. 


In all, we really did went through much to be where we are today. Whatever that may comes and the existing ones we shall be committed to each other in order to make things possible. There's a long and tough journey ahead of us, for the objections or the obstacles that's going to make us fall again and again, we shall held each other's hand and help each other up. I was really tired and I've thought of giving up in some point of time, but I'm glad that you've held me tightly and assured me that you will not let me go. Never an easy task to find a soul mate in life, whom you just felt so comfortable with and the one you wish to spend the rest of your life together. 

To my other half. thank you for standing by me through good and bad times. I still appreciate every little thing and thoughts that you have for me all the time. Thank you for bracing through the trials in life and made me felt that I'm worth. You're one of a kind that I can never find someone else like you ever for that kind of love and caring that you've given to me. You're my one and only and you mean a lot to me and I'll always cherish our relationship. I can't promise you the moon and stars, but I will try my best to stand strong and face whatever that's ahead of us. 


Friday, August 15, 2014

亲爱的,我爱上别人了

在略读完一篇戏剧的剧情介绍有的感言。- 亲爱的,我爱上别人了

我不是个喜爱疯狂追戏的女孩。我只喜欢看对我有意义的戏剧。因为,通常戏剧还没做完,开头的时候我已经猜到结局了。不是人生无常,而是戏里来来去去都是在扮演着一样的故事。通常都会是完美的结局,因为戏就是为看的人而演,人当然就是喜欢完美的结局。如果结局不好的话,我们都会说,浪费了我那么多的时间去看整部戏。而且人有时是非常的爱观看一些跟自己有关的戏,然后就会联想到自己有多惨。甚至于戏里都没那么的凄凉,然后就会创造一些假象好像自己是里面的角色,甚至幻想身边的人会跟戏里做出一样的东西。有时候,看上太多的戏只会给与自己更多无谓的幻想,没必要的担忧。本身比较喜欢看电影多过连续剧。因为,对急性的我来说等待着结局太辛苦了。

婚姻到底是什么?是两个人对对方的承诺,是法律上有效的夫妇关系?是能一起白头到老的完美结局,是被捆绑或被对方捆绑的一种说法?是因为爱所决定,是因为在一起太久了而必须做的下一步? 是想跟对方永远再一起,是放不下对方的决定?是肯定对方,是逃避现实? 是个快乐的开始,还是个噩梦的开始?筹备结婚那么重要的日子一定用上了至少一年的时间来完成,从储蓄,选婚纱拍婚纱,选择哪里摆酒编排酒席,华人的习俗,过大礼一直到结婚当天,花上的钱,时间,心思一切因该都不少。而离婚,就只用了那几分钟的时间那一点请律师的钱,过后就变成了两个陌生人。

可能这就是许多年轻人选择不想结婚的原因。就是因为套上了戒指,也不代表是永恒。你是否也曾望着他睡觉时熟悉的那个背影,但却感到距离万分,你发现原来根本就不明白你每晚的枕边人。就算是你每天有非常多的要想和他分享,但你一看到他回到家,累得躺在一旁自然的就没什么好说,就这样睡觉,然后明天又依然的重复直到你发现原来有个人在你身旁和没有其实是没什么分别。到头来,问问自己,过这样的生活有意义吗?

在这戏里,女主角是为了要逃避某某生活上的挫折,而男主角是为了要逃避当年所犯下的错误而一起步入了婚姻。当我们各自都背着包袱而选择做出某某的决定,可能是会后悔一生而埋怨对方的理由。女主角放弃了她的事业,当上了家庭主妇。先开始的时候,牺牲可能是一种幸福,可是当牺牲越来越多而对方又没珍惜的时候,牺牲就渐渐成为生活上的一种负累。你可能会开始计算你到底为了对方牺牲了多少,有时想想为什么他就不能像你一样的付出?这时候的你,就可能会开始觉得这段感情好累。

女主角说着这句 “结婚越久我反而觉得我已经不认识对方,我们共同的话题就越来越少,有着累计年月的谎言,女人就是知道越少越好,而且知道也就要假装什么都没听到,也不需要过问太多”。当男主角发现一切的时候,当然也就太迟了。以前的连五分钟都没时间给的,现在却有许多时间,但两个人已经无法回到从前一样,有时间也变得无话可说,通常男人都会等到失去的时候才会懂得珍惜。经常是因为我们都把身边对我们好的人放到最后一位,虽然口头上是说他们有多么的重要,可是你用良心问自己,你是否常常都把工作,朋友,和身边其他不重要的事情才是放第一位?当年年所承诺一切,你有是否做得到?还是经常都用上了这几个字“我很忙”,“没时间”,“不得空”来当作借口?因为爽约朋友们都会说你没用怕老婆,所以你需要面子。而家里的老婆就可也等,她也是永远那个最体谅你的女人,他也是那个唯一对你不离不弃的好女人。所以,你就常常选择把她当成牺牲品。女主角所说的其实女人很容易哄,只要每天关心她,常常对她说你有多爱她,关心她,抽空给她你的时间,女人就会为了那么少的东西就感动万分。这样的你会感觉到她对你做的一切也会双倍奉还,日子容易过,也幸福了许多。

在戏里跟现实,有时候很多的争吵都不是因为对方的问题,而是因为大家身边的人,事,物。人,就是家人,为了要满足他们的要求,常常都为了小事导致意见不和。而男人常常都为了避免繁琐的事务而选择了说谎,然后就制造了更大的谎言。当家人发现了,难为的通常都是女人,为了要解释通常都会被上罪名。女主角就是因为常常被男方的家人压迫,看小而在心理埋藏了许多,也没人可奉告就选择逃避。事,就是生活中常常都避免不了的小插曲。我们经常都为了小事而争吵,可是到头来却觉得毫无意义。就可能是为了忘记买一盒牛奶而吵架,甚至联想到 “常常叫你做什么事都做不好,一天到晚都没把东西放在心上,就是那么的不可靠”。有时生气时候说了的话就不能收回,你可能已深深的伤害了对方。 物,我们身边有好多物品,物品上有非常多的解释。其中就是有时就是因为要跟别人比较而不能满足生活上物品的需求而让自己感到失落。比来比去到最后是为了什么?就是为了放在面子书上看有多人Like?能买给你名牌货品的就是好老公?式着想想到底背后有着什么意义?

到最后结局就是女主角遇上了另一个适合她的男人,一个可以满足她的需求就是可以给与她时间和幸福的男人,过上了开心简陋的生活。而前夫也选择了做出最大的牺牲,因为知道自己是没办法给与你最爱的人幸福,倒不如放手。 过后的男主角也再娶,可是老婆却是为了掏家人欢欣但永远都不再是那个最爱的老婆。故事想说着就是珍惜眼前人,不要等到失去时才后悔。很多事都不可能再重来,失去的也不会再让你重新的开始。